I guess I began thinking about this when I started thinking about an episode of Sex and the City. Sometimes women have a tendancy to become "emotionally slutty." This phrase refers to the instance that women sometimes experience when meeting a new guy they might be interested in seeing. I am definitely on the edge of my seat with this one. My life has almost always been an open book to anyone who knows me well. I have little reason to hide things from those I know. But for some reason, I have this strong inclination to tell this guy I met everything about me that I possibly can. It's definitely a scary thought. Because I have never felt that way before with anyone. I have shared details about myself little by little but with him...well, it's just different.
I am unsure of how to proceed. I know that I must keep some things about myself a mystery simply because I must. There are things about me that not even my closest friends know...not because I don't trust them but because I don't trust myself and these things have brought about feelings that I am not quite ready to deal with. So, until I can deal with them, they shall be forever enshrouded in mystery...
*Always.
Caitlin
Sometimes those most worthy of love are not made happy by it. ~Dangeous Liaisons
It is on the strength of observation that one finds a way; so we must dig and delve unceasingly. ~Claude Monet 1840-1926