I went to Spring Spec to see a person who was probably the closest to me my senior year - I feel horrible because she and I have not talked in a while...and I hate that. Sometimes I feel as if I have abondoned everything and everyone I knew from back home just because it wasn't "easy" to keep in touch. *Bologna*
I don't feel myself these days. I feel...foggy. Or something to that effect. And I keep thinking about Kade...it's weird I know. I mean it's not weird that I've been thinking about him because it happens every once and a while; but it's weird because it's the way that I've been thinking about him. I just keep thinking to myself that he's right for me...
For the longest time there have been things that I wouldn't put in this diary...but today I have to say it. I feel a really REALLY strong connection with him. I don't know how it came about or even why it started, but I like it and I realize that THAT is the kind of relationship I want to have with whomever I end up with...I want it to be a relationship where he understands where I'm coming from...I want him to feel some of the same things I feel...and even know that there are some things that don't even have to be said. And I'm NOT romanticising my "future" relationship (with whomever)...because it isn't really about love at all...it's just about a relationship with understanding and emotions and connections.
Well, being that it's 10pm I should get to bed...work @ 6:45am!!!!! WOOHOO!
I bid you all good night!
*Always.
Caitlin
Sometimes those most worthy of love are not made happy by it. ~Dangeous Liaisons
It is on the strength of observation that one finds a way; so we must dig and delve unceasingly. ~Claude Monet 1840-1926