Dear Friend,
Where are you? I miss you so much. Sometimes I wonder how we came to build such a wonderful thing between us when there was no foundation to start with. You never tell me anything and because of that I stopped asking; no, that doesn't mean I don't care - I just get tired of the word "no" all the time. I don't care too much for that particular word...
Anyway, it seems like things aren't too great for you right now: I'm sorry, but hopefully things will get better with each passing day. Everything can't be perfect in your life friend, this is one thing I am starting to learn I think. There really is never a balance...it's just an illusion....
I called you the other night and you never called me back...and it was right after I talked to you online - I wondered if you were purposely not answering or wondering what I would have to say to you if you did answer...either way, I wish you would have picked up. It would have been nice to hear your voice...it would have been nice to hear YOU. I honestly didn't know you were still here in town...if I had known, perhaps I would have worked harder to reach you. Now that I know you've been here all this time and that you haven't called me - I am kind of hurt; wait, scratch that - there is no kind of...I am simply hurt.
Of all people I never thought that you would call out my emotions and then just discard them...I'm not really even upset or mad, just - disappointed I guess. I hope you know that I miss you. I hope you know anything that will help you to open up to me...to reconnect with me. Goodnight friend.
*Always.
Caitlin
Sometimes those most worthy of love are not made happy by it. ~Dangeous Liaisons
It is on the strength of observation that one finds a way; so we must dig and delve unceasingly. ~Claude Monet 1840-1926