That phrase is in a song and every time I hear it, it just gives me chills. I wish someone had all of me...I'd take a lifetime of hurt to be loved purely and truly even one time. It's like I tell myself to have this mindset of keeping things simple (school, work, friends, etc) and it never works.
"I've been alone all along..."
I have been alone all my life. We are all alone, even when we are surrounded by family, friends, strangers...it makes no difference. The only person you can depend on in this world is yourself. I am trying to live by this philosophy, but it's hard. Keeping parts of myself from everyone all the time is so hard to do. You'd think by now I'd have it down to an art...
"Destiny is an illusion, you make of the future what you want it to be..."
I am trying so hard to start the foundations of my future now, but it is not the easiest of tasks. I wish it were. I wish for a lot of things though I guess; as most people do.
I used to think I was going to be special; I thought that some day I would do something great; be something great. But I think I am just a normal, average person....is that okay? Is that what people want? If that is all I am going to be...then what is the point in striving to be something so wonderful, so great?
*always.
caitlin
Sometimes those most worthy of love are not made happy by it. ~Dangeous Liaisons
It is on the strength of observation that one finds a way; so we must dig and delve unceasingly. ~Claude Monet 1840-1926