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December 03, 2005
I never understood before I never knew what love was for My heart was broke, my head was sore What a feeling Tied up in ancient history What a feeling in my soul I never saw it happening I didn't have the strength to fight What a feeling in my soul It's brighter than the sun Love will remain a mystery What a feeling in my soul I got a feeling in my soul ============================================= Brighter than sunshine. Let the rain fall, I don't care.
What went wrong? Why can't it just fall into place? Or do I need to wait ten years like some people seem to do? God has a plan, but when does the plan start? I am so sick of acting like I don't care. I hate that my heart is torn in two and I hate that I can't do anything about it. I just have to let it heal. I hate that the one thing that hurts the most is something that I can't just fix myself. No one can help me. I watch all these movies about happy endings. Happiness. Joy. And it all seems to stem from love. No one ever shows the hatred, resentment, and bitter taste love leaves in your mouth. We idolize only one part of love: the happy part. And I despise the happy part as much as I despise the miserable part. Because being miserable and being happy become so skewed when you're in love. The line disappears. I don't want to be subtle about love. I want it all and I want it now. I have no patience where this is concerned...I hate no faith that if I don't pursue love on my own time that it will find me in the end. No one ever just accidentally falls in love.
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Sometimes those most worthy of love are not made happy by it. ~Dangeous Liaisons It is on the strength of observation that one finds a way; so we must dig and delve unceasingly. ~Claude Monet 1840-1926 |