So, what do I do? I keep getting these reminders from my past. In one particular situation it was mentioned that I am running from my past. Am I? I don't know. I never thought of moving on as running from something. I will always remember my past in order to create a better future by avoiding possible mistakes that I can make again. I guess I just don't see that being aware and moving on is considered running from my past.
However, as ironic as it seems, I keep repeating the same type of relationships with new guys that I have had in the past with old ones. Shitty ones in fact. So, maybe I am running from my past and I am just not very successful in this endeavor?
Another thing has been bothering me lately is my sex drive. Granted I have been extremely horny of late BUT I have no desire to go out and have sex with anyone. No one night stands or sex with guys I have already slept with. What's wrong with me? I used to be the go-to-girl! Now, I'm like the get-off-me-you're-annoying-girl. Ugh! Hopefully this minor illness I have currently will soon heal itself. I hate being sexless...
*Always.
Caitlin
Sometimes those most worthy of love are not made happy by it. ~Dangeous Liaisons
It is on the strength of observation that one finds a way; so we must dig and delve unceasingly. ~Claude Monet 1840-1926