Or maybe I do...
Why is 'why' always the question on everyone's mind? I find that every question I have ever really cared about knowing the answer to has started with 'why'...it's horrible. And a funny thing happened after Robyn mentioned this 'why' aspect to me...Bradley asked me why I analyzed everything and I said, "I don't know, it's just something I have always done I guess." Ironic don't you think? He asks me why, the same thing I ask about everything I analyze and yet I still cannot say why, I cannot give him an answer.
I find that I am constantly thinking about something, anything really. But I don't necessarily see this as a bad thing. I suppose that I am always thinking because in some way I am thankful for the capacity to think: not just think but think clearly, logically, and sanely, whereas some people do not have that privilege. I find to be docile or quiet or not thinking about things that are important to me makes me worthless and restless and unfulfilled in some way. It's in my nature to always question everything. But perhaps Bradley doesn't understand - he is not a female, ha. We females have the capacity to think rationally, logically and yet we spend night after night of our lives worrying and analyzing the previous day's events with our boyfriends, husbands, etc. It's neverending.
To be questioning and inquisitive, I feel, is a way to find answers and fix problems.
There are times I don't constantly think about things; like when I sleep for instance...
But perhaps my overanalyzation of things is what causes the problems needing fixing in the first place? Is that what you are saying Bradley? Gee, you are clever. Perhaps the answers were already there and I just didn't like them so I had to keep on analyzing anyway - looking for the answers that I wanted, that suited me.
Perhaps...
*Always.
Caitlin
Sometimes those most worthy of love are not made happy by it. ~Dangeous Liaisons
It is on the strength of observation that one finds a way; so we must dig and delve unceasingly. ~Claude Monet 1840-1926