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A Life Less Ordinary A Life Less Ordinary
February 15, 2005
Before I start this entry I just wanna give a little piece of credit to my friend Jim @ www.jim-the-fiend.com for helping me out with this new layout. Thanks darlin'!

Anyway, I don't get what it is these days with people and their attitudes towards relationships, love, etc. I was talking to my friend Jess the other day and I told her that I wasn't ever sure I would be capable of loving someone they way they want to be loved. Every guy I have ever met or dated has had a serious relationship - I've never had that and I don't see myself having one any time soon. I don't know what it's like to be in love or to feel like I can't live without a person and though I would love to believe in love I just can't bring myself to do it.

How can I believe in something that I have never even experienced, it's hard to be so trusting and so easily open. Jess said to me, "Well, then how is it you believe in God? You can't see him." I said to her that I have gone through things in my life where nothing could have helped except for God. My mom had breast cancer and I know that if not for God, I really don't think she would be here. At that time, my mom had such a strong faith (and she still does) but the more she believed the more it opened my eyes and the more I believed.

Anyway, I guess that in reality I can't see love as something so grand when it doesn't last for a lot of people. Love is supposed to be this binding experience in a person's life that brings joy and hope and all these wonderful things but what about divorce? What about being in love with someone who cheats on you? What about loving someone who doesn't love you? I just don't see how this thing that is supposed to help so many people...doesn't.

*Always.
Caitlin

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