A Life Less Ordinary

Do you know? I really, really hate school. Actually, it shocked me to know that my mother thought perhaps I shouldn't go to college; she asked me one day when we were in Gray's Cafeteria (eating dinner) over the summer, "Caitlin, do you even want to go to college?"

I said no of course, but then I really thought maybe I don't - or maybe I just don't want to be @ IU. Damn life and it's entanglements! Then my mother said that I shouldn't tell my stepdad that she asked me that...me not going to college isn't even something he could think of let alone ask me. *sigh*

I think sometimes I am one of those people that wont really know what they want to do until they're like forty-five, divorced and slighty neurotic. Yeah, that's me for sure.

I'm reading Bridget Jones: The Edge of Reason (the second novel after Bridget Jones's Diary...funny stuff) - and I continue to think that that will be my life...alone on Valentine's Day (even when I do manage to have a boyfriend), stuck in a career where my sense of self is not validated, a soul-searching mother and a whimp of a dad. Booooo!

Ahhhh the joys of life! :) It seems that I can only concentrate on the negatives of my being; why do you think that is? I am not ungrateful for the things I have...I am very fortunate to be able to go to college and have a good, caring family...but something is missing...I think? Or maybe the thing I think that's missing isn't really "missing" persay but has more of a clandestine type of deal going on. Who knows right?

Well, I have to go to work, BLEH! But I shall write again soon all: NEVER FEAR!

*Always.

Caitlin

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Sometimes those most worthy of love are not made happy by it. ~Dangeous Liaisons

It is on the strength of observation that one finds a way; so we must dig and delve unceasingly. ~Claude Monet 1840-1926

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