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A Life Less Ordinary A Life Less Ordinary
2004-07-11
Here I am, yet again reduced to sitting around my house, eating ice cream and searching for something to do/watch/occupy my time. I think this is one of the worst summers I've ever known. It's sad isn't it?

I went to Blockbuster a few minutes ago and out of (what?) 400 or so movies I couldn't find one thing I was interested in watching - that shit right there tells me I am in one of my moods. You know the type: Can't-Be-Satisfied-By-Anyone-Or-Anything type mood.

I'm bored, tired, worried, bored, in a rut, and angry because I can't find anything to watch. I thought about going to see Anchorman @ 9 but since I have to work at Seven in the fucking morning that sounds like I might be really shitty in the morning when I go into the Green Wall.

Mallori and I haven't spoken in about two weeks (I'm not counting the brief online experience we had on Tuesday I think it was). I don't even know her anymore and it came to me recently that maybe I don't care to anymore. Change is inevitable, I'll give you that, but her ChAnGeS are a load of BULLSHIT! It's like all she ever cares about anymore is whom she is dating or who wants to date her. She is devoid of any other emotion...so I don't care anymore. I don't want to be friends with someone who feels they need to be validated by someone else ALL THE FUCKING TIME. I mean everyone wants reassurance once in a while - hell I DO TOO - but her needs are just ridiculous!

Anyway, I guess I am just now into cutting out the bad parts of my life...Mal isn't bad...bad it's like the old saying about cheese: Moldy. No, I mean, well I don't know I guess I just don't see Mal as that piece of cheese that you can scrap the mold off of and continue as if it were still the same old, good cheese before the mold. (Hey, I know, my philosophy skills need work...but just bare with me.)

Had the annual PAP yesterday morning @ 8:30. That was a treat indeed! A speculum is the closest thing I've had to sex in a while and honestly, I'm okay with that! Ha! Who woulda thought right?

Well, there's the weekend update - hope it wasn't too graphic for you kids. Try and keep well.

*Always.

Caitlin

Wilted | Fresh


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