But that dream was so, so...sensual. I was in a room with a bed; dark red, silk sheets, vanilla scented candles, lavendar...the smells alone were enough to make me go crazy. I thought I was alone, but then there you were standing in a dark corner - and at first I couldn't make out who it was, but I should have known; it's always you...
I rose from the bed and walked towards you slowly and when I reached you I grabbed your hand and began leading you back to the middle of the room; back to the bed. You sat on the bed at first and then I slowly pushed you backwards until your head hit the sheets; and I was smiling the whole time - you have a way of making me do that you know? Smiling when it's least appropriate time. Anyway, I climbed on top of you, ever so gently, and I began streaking little kisses all along your neckline. You were so beautiful (you still are...)! You smiled at me and I could feel myself getting more and more passionate by the moment.
I removed your shirt and ran my hands up and down your chest; it was so defined. I leaned down and hugged you hard before I removed my shirt. I love the way you look at me (even if it's only the way you look @ me in my dreams) it makes me feel so wanted, so desirable. You moved your hands up my side to my breats; instantly when you touched me I had never been so happy. The thought of you makes me happy; the thought of us makes me happy. I wanted to tell you these things in my dream but it didn't seem necessary, it was like you already knew. I cocked my head back and a sigh of relief sounded from deep in my throat...
The rest of the dream was a blur, but none of my dreams with you in them ever seem too be about sex; it's always about something more important: the feeling. I have never felt that way with anyone and we have never even really....been THAT close. Why do I feel a connection with someone that I don't really know? And what of your idea of our connection being gone? Is that true?! I would hate to think that it's true...
*always.
caitlin
p.s.~ I want to give a little shoutout to my girls from last night; I always have so much fun with you1 I MISS YOU GUYS! I can't wait for this summer!
Sometimes those most worthy of love are not made happy by it. ~Dangeous Liaisons
It is on the strength of observation that one finds a way; so we must dig and delve unceasingly. ~Claude Monet 1840-1926