I suppose it's time to tell the truth, the whole truth not just what I want people to hear or know. I was dismissed from Indiana University for this semester. My GPA was too low and my grades weren't up to par, obviously. Okay, so I fucked up. I admit it. But I tried didn't I?
I keep thinking that maybe I am not supposed to be at IU, that maybe this happened for a reason. But truthfully I am not sure if I tell myself that just to keep from feeling ignorant or to keep my mind from thinking that I don't need school. I do and I know this. I don't know what to do with my life at this point. I am at an odds as to continuing college courses or truly taking a semester off and getting things back in order - finance wise, thinking about what I would really like to do, etc.
It's rather confusing when my stepdad is pushing me to stay and my mother is pushing me to take time off. Okay okay, so they aren't really pushing 'suggesting' rather is more appropriate. I just wish I had someone to tell me exactly what it is that I need to do to get back on track and I would do it. Whether it be taking a semester off, working or going to school somewhere else full time or part time. It's so damn confusing, I am about ready to pull my hair out.
I have recently been looking into a nursing program @ Ivy Tech though. My stepdad seems pretty adamant about nursing being a good career yadda yadda yadda and I guess I have let myself start thinking the same thing. So we shall see I suppose.
Anyway, I just wanted to drop in a line or two because I know it's verging on a month since I have written and I know how my readers hate to be in such suspense, (as if my life is so exciting right?)
So that is all for now.
*Always.
Caitlin
Sometimes those most worthy of love are not made happy by it. ~Dangeous Liaisons
It is on the strength of observation that one finds a way; so we must dig and delve unceasingly. ~Claude Monet 1840-1926