Feelin' a bit blue today (this morning). I don't even know why I am up. I need to get back on a regular schedule.
I miss back home. I miss my friends and I think this semester has kicked my ass to a point where I hate everyone and everything that is IU. Seriously. I know I have been a little distant from my IU buddies but it's because of finals and studying and all that junk. But there is something else too. I just miss my friends from Mooresville. Not that I don't appreciate my friends down here because I do, I really do. But my friends from back home - they get me in a different way than my friends down here do. It's totally different. There is something so endearing about being close to people you grew up with.
There's something warm and comforting in being around people that knew how popular you were in high school, what your talents were, what you were known for. There are things I bonded over with friends from back home that I will never get to experience with the people from IU.
I guess I started thinking a lot recently about this past summer. I got to thinking about how much time I spent with Dave, Julia, and even the infamous person who shall remain nameless. More so I really miss that trio - me, Dave and nameless. And it wasn't even about nameless and myself. It was just a really awesome feeling to have two guys in my life that were there for me around the clock. I miss that sometimes. And though I speak to Dave often enough, it still isn't the same as the summertime. I don't know really. It wasn't even just about the summer - it was something completely different. I could be myself around those two and was never a problem or cause for argument or jokes. Okay, well some jokes.
I guess I started thinking about the 'Trooper Trio' recently because of the party that Dave is having on New Year's Eve. I hope it's a great time because I feel like the fun times I get to have with my friends are becoming all too few.
I can't wait.
*Always.
Caitlin
Sometimes those most worthy of love are not made happy by it. ~Dangeous Liaisons
It is on the strength of observation that one finds a way; so we must dig and delve unceasingly. ~Claude Monet 1840-1926