I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling
Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
and it's brighter than sunshine
I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling
I didn't have the strength to fight
suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.
Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
I got a feeling in my soul
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Brighter than sunshine. Let the rain fall, I don't care.
But I do care. That's part of the problem. Everyone says love finds you when you aren't looking for it or when you least expect it. But who doesn't search for something they want to find?
Focusing on anything but what I really want is dishonest. I'm not being true to myself.
What went wrong? Why can't it just fall into place? Or do I need to wait ten years like some people seem to do? God has a plan, but when does the plan start?
I am so sick of acting like I don't care. I hate that my heart is torn in two and I hate that I can't do anything about it. I just have to let it heal. I hate that the one thing that hurts the most is something that I can't just fix myself. No one can help me.
I watch all these movies about happy endings. Happiness. Joy. And it all seems to stem from love. No one ever shows the hatred, resentment, and bitter taste love leaves in your mouth. We idolize only one part of love: the happy part. And I despise the happy part as much as I despise the miserable part. Because being miserable and being happy become so skewed when you're in love. The line disappears.
I don't want to be subtle about love. I want it all and I want it now. I have no patience where this is concerned...I hate no faith that if I don't pursue love on my own time that it will find me in the end.
No one ever just accidentally falls in love.
Love is not an accident...
*Always.
Caitlin
Sometimes those most worthy of love are not made happy by it. ~Dangeous Liaisons
It is on the strength of observation that one finds a way; so we must dig and delve unceasingly. ~Claude Monet 1840-1926