Running over the same old ground.
What have we found? The same old fears.
Wish you were here
Pink Floyd. Wish You Were Here. Wow! It's like my life - in a nutshell, right there. I feel like I'm alone. And I feel like, now that I'm back to school, the same old shit keeps happening over and over again. I keep finding the same things, the same fears and troubles that I started school with two years ago. It seems now that I am trying to be a responsible adult and take care of my finances and pay my bills and get another job, that things just can't go right - there has to be some little blip. Always. If it's not one thing, it's another. And who the hell coined that phrase anyway? Honestly. I think the person who coined that should be put away - I certainly can't go a day now without thinking that at some point. Isn't that weird? I let so many things get to me. I wish I didn't let things get to me, but they somehow worm their way into my brain.
Are we just too consumed with perfection to take things as they come? Maybe having difficulties with my finances and school is how my life is supposed to be - maybe perfection was never part of the plan? That may well be, but I think that plan sucks. I want to try a new one. I know. I know. Small steps...or something like that.
Okay, enough of the philosophy - I need to retire for the evening. Good night all.
*Always.
Caitlin
Sometimes those most worthy of love are not made happy by it. ~Dangeous Liaisons
It is on the strength of observation that one finds a way; so we must dig and delve unceasingly. ~Claude Monet 1840-1926