I feel as though there is a slight chance I may have wronged someone, a good friend when I should not have wronged her to begin with...but I do know that I will not explain myself or even try to makes amends as my pride will not let me.
Pride is indeed a sin, but one that I find I do not possess as often as most others. In this case, I know that I was upset about something and that something was big to me but it happens to not be to her. What is that? how do I fix something that isn't seen as being broken by the other? And in finding that I have not found an answer I have not continued the think of the question...I have not talked to her since this "event." Bleh!
My mom would say I judge her to harshly and maybe I do...but do I need to change my feelings and then my behavior or my behavior and then my feelings to fix that problem? I can't help the way I feel! Can I? Or can I at least help the way I act even if I feel a certain way? But then, I don't think a person should act one way and ignore their feelings unless it happens to incorporate extreme circumstances like lying, death, sickness or otherwise.
In a way, my life has turned out funny; wisdom comes with age no? Well, as I have gotten older I seem to be less and less sure about things and care less and less about people...horrible, I know.
In closing, I find that I cannot make up my mind about anything anymore or that I just do not care too. I have searched for answers and they are not there...why search for things you'll never find?
*Always.
Caitlin
*Anything you want, you got it. Anything you need, you got it, baby*
Sometimes those most worthy of love are not made happy by it. ~Dangeous Liaisons
It is on the strength of observation that one finds a way; so we must dig and delve unceasingly. ~Claude Monet 1840-1926