Yes, my mother is insane. She is driving me crazy with all this college crap. It makes me want to stay in high school- almost. Yes, I know in the long run that I will be grateful that she made me pack things ahead of time and clean all my cloths and my room. All my laundry is done...it's rather amazing. I have new clothes too. It's neat because this is the first time I have had all these things done at once.
Today I went to the movies and saw that certain person...he told me he missed me and I told him the same. I do miss him; I miss knowing he liked me so very much; I miss knowing that he was always there; I miss knowing that he only looked at me in that certain way. I asked him about Karen and he said that nothing came of it. I don't know if he was just saying that for my benefit or his. I don't know anything anymore. I thought that being rid of him was what I wanted, but then I realized I don't want to be "with" him, but I don't want to be without him either. It's a tangled web we weave is it not? He is leaving for college not this coming Monday, but next Monday- the 18th. I cannot decide if I want to pursue this or just leave it be.
I guess I have until then to decide...
Always.
Sometimes those most worthy of love are not made happy by it. ~Dangeous Liaisons
It is on the strength of observation that one finds a way; so we must dig and delve unceasingly. ~Claude Monet 1840-1926